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A Path of Love

The journey of self love sometimes feels like a never ending, up-hill hike.  No matter  how much progress you make, there is always someone wanting to push you right back down to the bottom.  Part of my self love process is learning how to not internalize the words and actions of others, turning them into my own inner reality!  Just because they say something bad about you, does not mean that it is true but the hard part is not letting my inner voice repeat those negative thoughts back to me in a never ending loop of self doubt.  

I am really working on choosing a path of love rather than a path of fear, and I am starting to recognize that the people who try to make others feel like this are really stuck in their own path of fear.  Instead of growing and trying to learn how to act out of a place of kindness, they want to try to bring the people in their life back to their level because they are too scared of changing.  Part of my journey is learning how to not react to this behavior, which is sometimes easier said than done.  Sadly, these are the people in your life that you just have to let go in order to continue your journey of love and growth.  You need to learn how to disconnect from this toxicity in order to maintain your own inner peace.

Today was a tough day, but at the end of it I was able to find a little laughter and love.  I am grateful to have my own space where I can disconnect and regroup.  I am grateful that I am able to move forward with my life and continue that up-hill hike while learning to tune out the negative words and actions of others.  When I look back at my life a year ago, I would have never guessed I'd be where I am today and I am so grateful for this journey.  It took me several years to decide to leave that path of fear myself and the path I am on now, while it has it's own trials and tribulations, is a path that is allowing me to love life again one small step at a time.  

For anyone who is struggling with feeling stuck and who are scared to choose a different path, I want you to know that the thing that really helped me the most was taking a big look at my life and asking myself if I wanted to feel like this a year from now.  Unfortunately it took me several years of asking myself this and of still feeling stuck a year later before I was finally able to make the changes necessary for my own growth, but now that I have, I don't regret it for a second.

When the sun sets on the day, a new dawn is certain to arrive.





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