Being Fair is Not Easy

I so do not want to put my drama out there, but I am in a position where I am fed up. I am a single Mom, by my own choice! Why, because I never want my daughter to grow up and think that certain behaviors are tolerable because she is a woman and I never ever want my son to grow up thinking it is ok to treat the women in his life as a less than because it's her duty as a woman.

I've worked very hard in my life to get to where I am, physically, spirituality and emotionally. Not many people who have met me will describe me as less than strong - maybe slightly closed - but strong and so very kind. Yet I have my own weaknesses and struggles too. Going through divorce and trying to be kind and forgiving while everyone tells you how much the other person is struggling is certainly a moment of humility for me. Will I tell them my reasons? Will I tell them my side of the story? Or will I swallow my pride and let them feel bad? Sadly, I'll probably choose the latter because that is me! I never ever want people to pick sides. I am a grown woman who made her choices and I will stand by them, regardless of what other people think of me.

PS I don't regret my decision, but now is my time to heal!!

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