Turn The Page - Bob Seger Style

So this song will forever remind me of a man I call my Dad. I found a book today that I needed to find. Christmas and Thanksgiving were always a great joy for him and I really feel him for the first time in years. I remember when I sat in his lap and asked him to marry my mom on their first date! How embarrassed she was, but how well it turned out! He is the man who taught me what a flat head vs. phillips screwdriver was as he wrenched on his motorcycle in our porch. His yellow truck with a a 4x4 piece of wood as a bumper as he picked me up from my first awkward middle school dance, candy bar bought shortly after because of how poorly it went.

He had a tough exterior but I will forever cherish our moments together. I don't talk about him often, but I think about him alot. He taught me to be strong in so many ways. He felt bad because he was tough on me, and I can still hear him telling my mom how much he loved me. Those were very hard moments for our family and sent us all down some pretty hard roads, but today I want to tell my story of him. He was a big bear who scared the crap out of people, but he was our teddy bear!! I bottle him up inside of me as a memory I refuse to share, but he will forever have my heart and continues to give me strength when I need him most. Between him and my mom, it's a no wonder I am who I am and I thank them both more than they can ever imagine!

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