A Journey to Self-Love

I am so proud of myself and the journey I am taking right now! I am really learning the concept of self-love for the first time in my entire life. I am looking in the mirror and I am happy with the woman I see looking back at me. I am the most confident I have ever been, I feel strong, capable and so very happy. It took me a very long time to find her, but now that I have I am not letting her go ever again. I can’t change my past but I can certainly reflect back and see how it helped to shape me into the person I am today. Every part of my past brought me to where I am now. There were moments that almost broke me, years I spent settling because that’s what I was supposed to do, years of feeling numb and lost in life.

Today, I am fighting for that woman! She has a heart of gold and will try her best to be kind and smile at everyone no matter how she is feeling. She is brave and she is no longer going to let the world or anyone in it bring her down, no matter what challenge she is faced with. She is learning to take risks and experience life! She is learning to stand up for herself and not engage in toxic behavior! She is learning what she wants out of this life and how to work towards it! She is stubborn and maybe a little ornery at times! She can be sensitive! She cries over puppies and babies! She loves anything beautiful, especially when it’s found in nature – sunrises, sunsets, rainbows & flowers are the best! She loves the fresh air, especially after a good rain! Also, the sweet smell of corn in the latter days of summer! She loves gravel roads and good music! She is strong! She is beautiful! And she is ME!

I spend a lot of time praying for this woman and the more I pray for her, the more I love her!

Maybe these affirmations seem silly, but the more I love myself, the more confident and happy I become. I wish that every single person could find the things within themselves that they adore and learn to use those qualities to love themselves and accomplish the things in life they desire most. At first it felt a little conceited to write down all of the things I love about myself, but then again after spending years telling myself that I really wasn’t that important, I think this is ok and maybe long overdue! And maybe it might help inspire others to start looking at themselves in the mirror and finding the things within themselves that they love too!

We are all on this journey together! When we love ourselves we can begin to love others even more! And as the saying goes, love conquers hate both within as well as towards others!

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