We all are in need of a little self care and lots of self loving! Anxiety, depression and every little thing we cannot control can be a very heavy burden. A burden that weighs us down. A burden we sometimes do not know how to overcome. Today, I was so overwhelmed with life! I had a rare opportunity to listen to music, dance a little, take a hot bath, and write. Life is a crazy mess and in the midst of the hustle and bustle we sometimes loose the opportunity to ground ourselves and love ourselves, imperfections and all! I started my day feeling like a brick was sitting on my chest. I am in the process of learning how to take those moments for what they are, just moments! After those moments pass, I feel like I am a very lucky person. I have so many things and people to be thankful for. Have I faced loss, have I faced hardships, have I faced more struggles than I care to talk about - yes, yes and yes! But I have realized that all of those hard moments made me the person I am now. While it will never make those things any easier, I am a very spiritual person and believe that at the end of the day, I am here for a reason whether I know the reason why or not! If you have the opportunity to completely unwind, take a moment to reconnect with yourself and what you really enjoy in life - Do It - listen to music so loud that no one understands, dance like no one is watching and most importantly - Love yourself!!
In these uncertain times, I feel like an absolute failure as a mother. I am anxious, they are anxious, and I am clueless how to handle any of it! These are unprecedented times for all of us. We are used to routines and as normal as I try to keep things, they reflect my every emotion times a million. They are receptive and know that this is not a normal routine, they feel my anxiety and their stress is a reflection of my own. I feel like a hamster in a wheel, I'm trying to explain and talk them through it but they are closing down, much like I tend to do, and we are running circles around everything. Today we had a huge battle over drinking water - my son, who normally eats me out of house and home is refusing to eat and hardly drinking anything. He wants to do his homework, but gets super frustrated with every aspect of it so we set it aside today. He is super angry with me for everything I try to do and I am angry right back be...
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