Learning How to Be Happy

When I look back at the last few years, I really admire the woman I have grown into and the obstacles I have overcome. I am at peace with where I am today. I am truly grateful for the path I have chosen to follow. With that being said, there are still things I struggle with and it's an ever evolving process to continue to heal and grow. We all have parts of ourselves that we struggle to accept and it's so hard to fully love ourselves when there are parts of us that we don't necessarily like.

For me, I have discovered that I am overly independent to the point that it's not always healthy and learning to allow others into my life is so difficult for me. I don't truly understand how to overcome this issue, but I am all too aware of how it affects my life and my relationships. I find it easier to put a wall up and dig my heels into the dirt of negativity, than allow myself to be vulnerable and, dare I say it, happy! I self-sabotage way more than I'd like to admit and the worst part is that I am mostly aware of when I am doing it.

I wouldn't say this is necessarily the norm, but it is definitely something that has popped back up in my life recently and is an issue that I really want to learn how to bring into balance. While I don't know how to exactly "fix" this part of myself, I think acknowledging it and giving myself a little grace is the first step. I also have to remind myself that I don't have to be so darn hard on myself all of the time either. I am very lucky to have people in my life who not only know I struggle with this, but who love me anyway. No matter what walls I put up, they are always there when they come back down again and I am forever thankful for these amazing people in my life!

So here's to a little grace, healing, positive energy and lots of love & laughs moving forward. Here's to learning how to be happy!!

Comments

Self-Check

What a month, and what a year! There are so many good things happening, but a lot of changes too. I, a Taurus to the core, hate change. It's uncomfortable and I tend to drag my feet in the dirt the entire time! It makes me stressed and emotional. But change is necessary! Change is good! Not just for the mind but for the soul. After a year of changes, both good and sad, I have reached a self-check moment where I need to let go of my stubborn need to stay put in fear of said change. I need to let go of the emotions and just take a moment to enjoy this next chapter. The sad part is, sometimes that comes at a cost. It means saying goodbye to some while saying hello to others. It means learning to not be so ultra-independent. It means learning what your traumas are and trying to heal. It means learning what you love and what makes you happy. It means taking a self-check moment to realize what is important and what you can put to rest. It's hard, but it's important! Ta

A Journey to Self-Love

I am so proud of myself and the journey I am taking right now! I am really learning the concept of self-love for the first time in my entire life. I am looking in the mirror and I am happy with the woman I see looking back at me. I am the most confident I have ever been, I feel strong, capable and so very happy. It took me a very long time to find her, but now that I have I am not letting her go ever again. I can’t change my past but I can certainly reflect back and see how it helped to shape me into the person I am today. Every part of my past brought me to where I am now. There were moments that almost broke me, years I spent settling because that’s what I was supposed to do, years of feeling numb and lost in life. Today, I am fighting for that woman! She has a heart of gold and will try her best to be kind and smile at everyone no matter how she is feeling. She is brave and she is no longer going to let the world or anyone in it bring her down, no matter what

Friendships!

So when I was told about your death, I was in denial. I spent the better part of the day trying to find out if what I was told was a big fat lie! It wasn't - deep down deep I already knew that! I walked up on your porch - didn't have to even see your family and I broke down. You know me, sensitive as always! Anyways, Val, you and I met through a Sunday School classroom that neither of us really felt like we belonged. But we made the most of it and we put together some really neat programs for our kiddos. You were the first person I confided in about my divorce and my scare with breast cancer and my decision to undergo a crazy surgery. You were always in my corner! You also took me kayaking for the 1st time, so you had my heart then for sure! You shaped two young men who would offer to shovel out my driveway. You sent your husband to help me with frozen pipes. And Emmy, who has your heart!! We haven't seen each other in months and when I went to go get my 1st tat

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